November 9, 2005
Gopastami
Rādhārāṇī's annual Caran Darśan. Goṣṭha-līlā kīrtans in Gopīnāth- and Śyāmasundar Mandirs. Rasarāja gives me a copy of the newly printed English Mādhurya Kādambinī, he says there are no immediate plans for further publishing (of new titles) for now.
November 8, 2005
I meet Rasāmṛta, who was thrown out of Gauḍīya Discussions for helping me defend the Gosvāmīs and the Bhāgavata against Jagāi and Mādhāi. He says he did not want to post anymore after and because of such behavior.
Yadunātha tells me that Rohini serves Śyāmakund by cleaning its steps with a pooper-scooper.
November 7, 2005
I dreamt tonight that Bābā had come back...
The 12th day of this bout of cold. In despair I walk to Gauradhām hospital, where I get tabs that cure somewhat. Half of my trip (27 out of 54 days) lost in illness. So sad, as I looked forward to this trip for 6 months (in perfect health).
November 5, 2005
The trip to Vṛndāvana is wholly in vain, materially and spiritually (as far as anything in Vraja is in vain). Parimal Bābu does not have the texts I am looking for - he has four notebooks full of beautiful kathā, but none of it is named. It is from Ānanda Gopāl Gosvāmī's time though (1943), but most of the topics wouldn't fit into our upāsanā, so its unlikely to be his.
Studies of Rādhā Govinda Nāth's commentaries on Caitanya Caritāmṛta -
Antya 19.53 - govinda - "You always protected our senses with Your flavor, touch, sound etc.How can we gopis survive in separation from you? Dāmodar - Remember once those who are bound with ropes of affection to you! mādhava - Even Lakṣmī devī cannot tolerate separation from You! So she always dwells on your chest as a golden stripe. How can we simple girls then tolerate the pain of separation from you? You must protect us! Or: You are not (mā) our husband (dhava), so you cannot do with us whatever you want!"
Antya 19.63-64 Perhaps Mahāprabhu was into vāsaka sajjikā bhāva and wanted to eagerly go out of the kunja to see if Kṛṣṇa was coming.
Antya 20.8 - Mahāprabhu chanted hare kṛṣṇa out loud, as in Baladeva Vidyābhūṣaṇa's tika of Stavamālā - hare kṛṣṇeti mantra pratika grahanam. ṣoḍaśa nāmātmana dva-triṁśad akṣarena mantrena uccair uccāritena sphurita kṛta nṛtya rasanā jihvā yasya saḥ "He made His tongue dance with the 32-syllable, 16-word Hare Kṛṣṇa mantra."
Sanātan Gosvāmī's ṭīkā to HBV 11.247 - vācikasya kīrtanāntargatatvāt mānasikasya ca smaraṇātmakatvāt. Real japa is upaṁśu - vocal japa is counted as kīrtan and mental japa as smaraṇa. But for that one needs a pure and steady mind.
Gopastami
Rādhārāṇī's annual Caran Darśan. Goṣṭha-līlā kīrtans in Gopīnāth- and Śyāmasundar Mandirs. Rasarāja gives me a copy of the newly printed English Mādhurya Kādambinī, he says there are no immediate plans for further publishing (of new titles) for now.
November 8, 2005
I meet Rasāmṛta, who was thrown out of Gauḍīya Discussions for helping me defend the Gosvāmīs and the Bhāgavata against Jagāi and Mādhāi. He says he did not want to post anymore after and because of such behavior.
Yadunātha tells me that Rohini serves Śyāmakund by cleaning its steps with a pooper-scooper.
November 7, 2005
I dreamt tonight that Bābā had come back...
The 12th day of this bout of cold. In despair I walk to Gauradhām hospital, where I get tabs that cure somewhat. Half of my trip (27 out of 54 days) lost in illness. So sad, as I looked forward to this trip for 6 months (in perfect health).
November 5, 2005
The trip to Vṛndāvana is wholly in vain, materially and spiritually (as far as anything in Vraja is in vain). Parimal Bābu does not have the texts I am looking for - he has four notebooks full of beautiful kathā, but none of it is named. It is from Ānanda Gopāl Gosvāmī's time though (1943), but most of the topics wouldn't fit into our upāsanā, so its unlikely to be his.
Studies of Rādhā Govinda Nāth's commentaries on Caitanya Caritāmṛta -
Antya 19.53 - govinda - "You always protected our senses with Your flavor, touch, sound etc.How can we gopis survive in separation from you? Dāmodar - Remember once those who are bound with ropes of affection to you! mādhava - Even Lakṣmī devī cannot tolerate separation from You! So she always dwells on your chest as a golden stripe. How can we simple girls then tolerate the pain of separation from you? You must protect us! Or: You are not (mā) our husband (dhava), so you cannot do with us whatever you want!"
Antya 19.63-64 Perhaps Mahāprabhu was into vāsaka sajjikā bhāva and wanted to eagerly go out of the kunja to see if Kṛṣṇa was coming.
Antya 20.8 - Mahāprabhu chanted hare kṛṣṇa out loud, as in Baladeva Vidyābhūṣaṇa's tika of Stavamālā - hare kṛṣṇeti mantra pratika grahanam. ṣoḍaśa nāmātmana dva-triṁśad akṣarena mantrena uccair uccāritena sphurita kṛta nṛtya rasanā jihvā yasya saḥ "He made His tongue dance with the 32-syllable, 16-word Hare Kṛṣṇa mantra."
Sanātan Gosvāmī's ṭīkā to HBV 11.247 - vācikasya kīrtanāntargatatvāt mānasikasya ca smaraṇātmakatvāt. Real japa is upaṁśu - vocal japa is counted as kīrtan and mental japa as smaraṇa. But for that one needs a pure and steady mind.
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