Annakut at Amiya Gopal's
Annakut at Govinda Mandir
Diwāli at Raghunāth Dās Gosvāmī's Samādhi.
November 4, 2005
After 2 days of sickness finally out and about again, hearing Vidagdha Mādhava pāṭh by Viśvanāth. Yugal records them for DVDs, MP3s and VCDs. Viśvanātha just started this on Ekādaśī, halfway Niyam Sevā.
November 3, 2005
Unexpectedly Parimal Viśvāsa visits me at night. He doesn't know if the manuscripts I look for are with him. He got them from his grandmother. He is himself a śiṣya of Ananta dās Bābā from Govinda Kund.
November 2, 2005
Due do eating some sweets late last night I wake up with a head full of mucus. I have darśan of only the main Annakuts and eat just a small amount of Girirāja's prasād, that are free from dairy products. Giridhārī misses the abhishekh, but the caraṇāmṛta would have increased my mucus anyway. I sleep for 28 hours.
November 1, 2005
Diwāli on the bank of the kund is, like Bahulāṣṭamī, less crowded than in previous years.
Studies Rādhā-Govinda Nāth's commentaries on Caitanya Caritāmṛta
Antya 18.18 - Prema dances on the waves of joy and sorrow, separation and meeting, vāmya and dākṣiṇya, softness and hardness, the 20 bhāvas like kila kiñcit, sañcārī bhāvas etc. All this is caused by prema.
ek ṭhāi - In Braja, or within Mahāprabhu (does he refer to the Rādhā-Kṛṣṇa milita tanu here??)
Antya 18.79 - ardha bāhya is like waking up from a dream - one is just returning to the 'real' world and is still half dreaming too.
Antya 19.46 - A child cannot make a house - it would be unfit to live in, especially in the long term. Fate also is unable to create lasting and successful love-affairs.
Antya 19.38 - The moon doesn't illuminate the caves' interiors, but Kṛṣṇa's moon-like face shines in the caves of the people's hearts, destroying the darkness of sorrow there.
Antya 18.98 - virodha alaṅkāra is an apparent, but not real contradiction - virodhaḥ sa virodhābhāḥ virodhābhā iti na vastuto virodhaḥ virodha iva bhāsata ityarthaḥ (Alaṅkāra Kaustubha 8.26). Generally friends don't attack friends and no one protects an enemy. But actually there's no contradiction, because Kṛṣṇa's hands attack the gopīs' breasts, and the gopīs protect them with their hands, that is natural.